last day on november

Dear Ary JC,
maybe He was waiting for me, maybe he think I'll go home in this December, but all is like evryting will gone, like myfriend and other,feel sad after all,pengen pulang aja deh, udah males disini,pengen cari kerjaan lain, coz gajinya kecil banget, hmm..sbenerny g kecil koq, but when I hear others got more than I've got so I wanna move on too, feel bored in this place, i dont say this place not good , so nice here. But I wanna some company pay me more, with all this,Just wanna go home and sleep.Pengen banget deh makan sbanyak2nya mpe puas and then tidur, keqnya penghujung November ini harus diahiri dengan muka merengut kah.?I won't let it be lah, I just wanna try to smile start from now,even trasa berat.stelah berfikir bahwa waktu g bisa diulang kembali that's why harus lebih menikmati hidup, since mymother gone I feel evrything never gonna be okay, Never gonne alrite with all situation. Pengen ke mom dan crita tentang ini smua,menyedihkan skali after all.Bisa g ya aku keq yang dulu lagi,keqnya beban yang aku pikirkan smakin hari smakin berat, aku g bisa mengabaikan ini smua,srasa berat..aku g bisa mengabaikannya. Aku g tau, yang jelas smakin hari smakin berat. Mom..aku kangen,;-(.Aku g tau mau ngomong apa ge..tapi aku cuma pengen buang smua beban yang aku pikirkan,mencoba untuk ikhlas dan yakin smua indah pad waktunya.walaupun serasa berat tapi aku yakin Tuhan selalu ada..sampai hari ini dia masih ada dan g pernah mengabaikan aku,isn't God.?;-)
Bdw, Ni hari pnghujung bulan November, g terasa y Ary, since January until today so many experience that I'll be remember Always,,;-), brasa banget seruny di Tahun 2011 ini, ada sedih, bahagia,pengalaman ke jakarta, banyak dah pokoke, menyenangkan si,tapi since january until today when I make relationship with Him,evrything become hard.,I dont say that He is a destroyer or He makes mylife become harder than wheb I do not know and do not make relationship with him, In case i love him so,but so many problem I've got. Dear Kudo,,i can't say anything while i feel much trouble , not just feel but I get so much trouble, evrything become hard. even I miss with you but some times I wanna let you go because later you know I know i can't make you feel happy,I can't cooking, I'm not ready for some marriage,and I feel evrything become hard when your brother told me to take some vancany in Medan. Feel like i come back to medan again and eork there,,walau dipikir pikir pasti lebih menyenangkan karna ufah deket ke kampung trus dket ke Kudo,ugh.!, Godness,,masalahnya Vacancyny mungkin dan memang dipastikan untuk seorang lucy yang kmampuan bahasa Inggrisnya Payah..yaahhh....;-(,Godness..Aku cape,Aku pengen tidur dipangkuanmu,Aku pengen ngobrol banyak tentang situasi yang aku hadapi ahir2 ini, aku slalu mrasa sdih, Tuhan..How I love him so with all his mistake,I wanna spend mylifetime for loving him maybe,coz kalau mang g jadi sama dia,yang ada kepikiran malah jadi jomblo,and then kuliah dlu, pengen cari kerja yang lebih baik, hahaha..spertinya dampak seorang kudo luar biasa y dalam hidup lusi..
Damn it.!
Welcome desember..enjoy Great Last Month in this 2011
-God Bless-