09--November 2011--Cinta itu..

Dear Ary JC,
Feel cold,and feel empty since evrything become like usual,like we're never make some a relationship,and finally he ask me about our relationship last nite,,nevermind if we**..i just always say nevermind and later when he go walk out and then do not want to make a relationship with me and told me it's enough then evrything will be running frustated,I do not know what to do actually,feel terrible Mr. kudo..look at me,can you say something.? sbenernya g tau si mau bilang apa,,dibilang putus asa ia,,sudah. seandainya saja dia kasih waktu buat aku,6 month later,pasti deh aku mau jadi istri terbaik dia,but it's look like dia tidak akan bersedia menunggu,Only God know myheart well,even if I say I love you until no words could say anymore maybe he wouldn't believe it until someday I prove that how I love him so..hahaha..khabisan kata2 deh pokoknya,yang jelas if someonetake myheart and could see that how I love him so..but I think that it was too late..Mr. Kudo..wish you understand about all this..wish you know that someday I wanna spend the rest of mylife beside of you..If i were,,but it's look like it was over..hopely kita masih bisa memperbaiki semuanya,semuanya,dari awal lagi,,dari awal kita bertemu,kenalan,jalan,pacaran,made some kiss and some hug and go around medan after that stay at your boarding house along the day,,spend many times beside you,I wish I could darla,,but what I must suppose to do.? I couldn't..I was jealous after that,,aku cemburu dengan wanita yang akan dijodohin ke kamu, when you told me that you make some call with that girl..how hurts I am,I can't imagine you say hello..laughing with her,,How jealous I am..but what I must suppose to do.? it's look like I was fool..fool coz of love..it's look like you're myheart,mybreath..I couldn't life without you..I'll die..
After all..I just wanna survive,hang on,,,coz I know evrything will be okay..tentunya God tau ini semua,tau mana yang terbaik buat aku,I do not care sesedih apa pun aku,sesulit apa pun perjalanan hidup yang aku alami,yang pastinya Dia selalu and will stay beside me and always Have time hear about myshare..always deh keqny si lusi share evryday..about the love that couldn't together..
Tuhan..aku titipkan hati dan pikiranku yah..please take care and show me for all this way out..:)
-God Bless-
When my absence doesn't alter your life, then my presence has no meaning in it.